I was raised in the middle of the bible belt, from a youth until now I have been taught the bible. My beliefs were always considered "normal" until a few months ago. Now, according to some, I might be a heritic. Just a short time ago I refused to use any common sense when listening to others teach about Jesus, no matter what was said, if it did not line up word for word with the exact words written in the bible, I was against it, no matter how much of a hatemonger it made me look like. My belief was very closed minded, if you asked me about the homosexual, my response would have been, "It is an abomonation", and "God destroyed Sodom and Gommorrah for that sin, he will destroy these weirdos also", to me, the Jesus I knew of must have hated them, or so I thought. Since I was supposed to be like Jesus, I thought it natural to quote scripture to condemn them or anyone else that did not line up with my religious thinking, you know, the same scriptures modern christian telivision sometimes uses for the same purpose. When someone bombed an abortion clinic, I almost cheered, I would actually be for the person who did the bombing, never seeing the stupidity of my thinking, actually believing that God may have directed someone to do such a horrible act.

Now, I call that "stinking thinking", it certainly was not from God. I had no care whatsoever for the millions who have died without ever hearing whether there even be a Jesus, I knew that we were supposed to reach them, but since we didn’t, God would burn them for eternity and that was that. Who was I to question God for doing so, after all, I was one of His "chosen", I thought that all these millions just were created for the purpose of eternal damnation, as if God went down a line saying "YOU eternal life", and "YOU eternal damnation", I thought myself one of the lucky ones that got called into life.

Man, what a fool I was to think that way.

Here is a conflict of interest, we can quote "God is love", and then we say "God will destroy the ungodly", I ask you, what kind of love is that?, would you like it if I was your Father and I loved you that way? If we use a little bit of common sense, we will realise that God is love, period. And His love is not roasting humanity in a burning pit, His love was demonstrated on a cross as His son, willfully gave his life as a sacrifice for all humanity, to reconcile all men, all nations back to the place that Adam first had in the beginning, to be one with God. Most of us have believed at one point or another that it was necessary to have a carnal (mind) knowledge of Jesus to be counted as "saved", if you still do, tell me, did you have to have a "carnal" (mind) knowledge of Adams transgression to be counted in his sin?, no, of course not. You had no choice in the matter, Adam made the choice for you. We have plain evidence that Adam brought sin for all of humanity, that is very clear, we don’t have a problem with that, but when the apostle Paul said that Jesus, in the same way that Adam made all men experience sin, will cause ALL men to be made alive we have a problem. So, we twist what he said to conform with our particular belief or church doctrine, usually adding another verse or two to make it look good. What about Paul rather emphatically stating that "All Creation" will be brought into the SAME glorious freedom AS the sons of God, what does "All creation" mean to you?, I think it is very clear, "All creation" is exactly that, All of Gods creation, of which, you, I and everyone ever born is a part of. We ought to rejoice over these words rather than try and explain them away. Is it not easy to see why christians are viewed with so much hate worldwide?, we have told people for years, "God loves you, but if you dont walk that straight and narrow line He will burn you in Hell", I guess most dont want that type of love, would you?

We tell gays, "God hates your kind" while we wear our "Jesus loves you" hats. We gripe over beer or wine, even though Jesus drank wine, and believe me, it was fermented, Noah was called righteous by God, and his second act after the flood was to plant a vinyard and get drunk. We complain over anything that disagrees with our line of pre-determinded thinking, thinking ourselves "Champions" if we "defend the faith", and I say to you very humbly that this faith needs no defence, we are not on a defensive campaign, but a submited one.

Well, enough of that, I have happily discovered recently that the "Jesus" I used to believe in was only a bad interpretation of the scripture, I was blind to listen to so many deface the real Jesus.

The real Jesus is the purest form of love that there is, and he came not to condemn the world, it was already condemned, He came to save the world from that condemnation.

The real Jesus is the one John the baptist got so excited about and exclaimed, "Behold the lamb of God who takes away the sins of the world." The real Jesus will never cast me aside for any reason, and He will never for any reason leave me.

This Jesus I speak of came and found me, I did not go looking for him, I did not find Him on and "Old fashioned altar", rather, He found me upon His heart as He was upon the cross, I was the reason He was there, and you were too. This Jesus is not waiting for me to straighten myself out for Him, He is conforming me into His image from the inside, and one day, I will look, act and be just like Him, and it is not dependant on how good I am, and in fact, it is not dependant on me at all, but, "He that has begun this good work in me will perform it."

This Jesus is placing into my heart to feed a hungry person instead of padding the church building fund, and to help clothe someone rather than give 10% to a offering plate.

This Jesus is placing His love in my heart for all humanity, regardless of their color, or religious belief. He says to me that we all are His children, all of us.

This Jesus tells me to love my neighbor, and by doing so, the entire law is fullfilled, imagine that, we dont have to try and follow rules and regulations, just love.